And you ask how are things with the foster/adoption???

Well Allen and I began our parenting classes last week, the classes will be held every week on Thursday evenings. We actually have homework which is kind of funny, the thought of having homework before we get to parent. But we wil do it. The classes are for 9 weeks on the 9th week we will have 2 classes. Our biggest assignment so far will be constructing our letters to our future foster child and his/her parent(s) to let them know that we care about their well being and their parents. Allen and I also have to construct a scrapbook of us and our home including the furbabies. Hey we might have fun constructing it.

In other news I am on day 3 of stims and AF is starting to leave the building. I have my first stim consult on Monday which will have me on a week of stims. I am hoping for at least the same 6 follicles developing if there are a few more that will be ok too. We can’t have too many because then it will have to convert to an IVF cycle and we are not prepared for that now. However this cycle we will be asking for Allen to get his morphology tested so we know where we are on that front. I am hoping or WE are hoping and praring since his numbers and motility increased that the morphology increased as well. I recently read an article that says that 2-4% morphology are considered normal and there are 2 forms of testing so your results all depend on which test you use. Honestly that gives us hope but you know what all we want it a baby. Until next time…………..

And then it was over again………….

l went to bed last night and everything was right with the world then I woke up this morning and AF was in town. I thought for sure THIS was THE month I had lots of symptoms but I guess that was from me paying extra special attention to my body. So I called my RE this morning to leave my day 1 notice and my nurse answered the phone to my surprise. I am to start stims on Monday with a tent IUI date of Feb 5/6. I went oer my old records today and was surprised to find out that out of all 3 IVF cycles and 2 IUIs this past cycle was the FIRST time my E2 levels have been over 62!!! SO maybe those cycles weren’t really cancelled in vain how far could we have gotten with those levels no way were they going to be where we needed them to be. I also found out that Allens levels increased by 20 million and his motility increased by 20% we still don’t know about his morphology but decided this cycle we hae to know! If his levels are still around two percent we may have to figure out how to come up with the 9,000.00 for the procedure. I am hoping his morphology increased as well. I also need to check where my FSH levels are at but I can wait until my next monitoring appt on the 28th to see what they are since I only have one more day before its time to start the fun again.

So heres hoping, praying and wishing for a BFP in Feb for L-O-V-E.

Listening to my body….

So it has been 4 days since my IUI and I have been obsessing over each and every ache that I have been having………

Oh I wish I could be carefree about this and I know that it will take at least a week for the embryo to make it to my uterus but I still obsess. I am hoping this week will fly by so I can get to my beta. Allen and I have our first foster/adopt class this upcoming Thursday which we are looking forward to attending. It will be a good learning experience for us and hopefully get us closer to adopting our forever child.

Well I have been sperminated!!!!

I had my IUI this past Wednesday. Allen and I are really positive this is THE one. We were extremely worried that this cycle would be converted to timed intercourse due to the snow/ice storm we had but the clouds parted and we made our way into the first clinic 9am. The roads were still a little slick due to the black ice. We had to go to two separate clinics because my IUI was being performed by my military physician and Allen’s sperm wash was being done by an outside provider. I waited in the waiting room while Allen did his thing going through all the necessary paperwork and when he was done we both waited for them to prepare his sample. The tech came out after about 15 mins with the vial and gave us the prognosis and it was AWESOME we had a sample of 85 million POST WASH and motility of 85% freaking awesome!!!!! We didn’t get a report on morphology but you know what I don’t care! So I put the sample in my bra to keep it warm and then we headed to the actual IUI. My doctor wasn’t able to perform the procedure because he was delivering a baby of all things :0) Awesome sign maybe??? If not that one maybe the couple in the hallway who just found out they were expecting :0) So we waited in the room for about an hour and then my nurse informed me she would be doing my IUI which I had no problem with she informed me if she had a problem inserting the cath she would wait on Dr. P. All system were a go and afterward I rested on the table for about an hour chatting with Allen. I started to cramp really bad after so I spent most of the afternoon watching tv on the coach and doing laundry. Today is 2dp my IUI and still a little crampy but overall feeling fine. I went to my Zumba class last night. My beta is the 26th nurse D said to call her 2 hours prior to when I go in and she will try to get my results the same day which I thought was awfully nice since she is the only RN in the clinic and Dr.P has ALOT of patients. I have talked it over with GOD and believe this is it a baby is on the way to our house in 2011.

We made to my RE

Well the clouds parted and we made it into the RE this morning amoungst the awful weather for my ultrasound and bloodwork. The storm hit here about 5am this morning and by the time we hit the road at 6:10 there were already 3 cars that had swerved off the road on post. BBy the time we got out of my appointment which was only an hour they had completely closed it down. The weather out there is awful!!!! So the news on my ultrasound…….. I have not one, not two but 6 follicles growing!!!! I havent even had that many during any of my IVF cycles let alone IUI where I had two the most. So there are perspectivly at 16,19,and 14 on the left side and 22,18, and 11 on the right. So I am looking at ranges od 24, 20, and 13 on the right and 18, 21, and 16 on the left Wednesday for my IUI. I am to take one more dose of meds this morning and hopefully trigger tonight. Awesome!!! And my lining looks awesome as well. I will update as soon as I find out where my E2 levels are, all these follies explain the slight discomfort I have been having.

Edit: E2 was 825 so at least 3 follies are growing!!! Triggering at 10:30pm tonight.

13 days of stims…….

Do you guys realize this is the longest I have EVER been on stims!?! When we were doing IUIS before I was on Femara and only 5 days of meds, with ALL the IVF cycles we have done donor and non donor my cycles have always been cancelled on cycle day 5 so this is the longest I have been on stims.

However………….

The weather is now throwing a wrench into my cycle. We are now looking at a possible snow storm approaching our area. I got a call from my nurse last night telling us to watch the television to watch for closures. Ugggghhhh!!!!! So Allen and I will have to get up at 4:45am to see what the weather looks like to see if we will in fact journey to the RE hopefully worse come to worse it will not ruin this cycle. Prayers needed.

This is where I start to loose my mind

Getting through the weekend knowing I have five potential eggs growing inside me and no control what so ever! We have been down the road where by the time we got to our IUI I had in fact ovulated already and another part of me is scared shitless that although I have 5 potential eggs they are not eggs and in fact cycts. My Hcg level was in the 200’s yesterday from my research I found that levels should be 250 per follicle. So that should equal 1,250. I am not at that level. I don’t know if I have ever been at that level………….
We just need to make it through the weekend I have an appointment with the RE bright and early Monday morning. Please GOD let them have matured and be on our way to an IUI that will in fact give us a child.

Updates and all that jazz :) IUI

After 9 days of stims I went in today for a follicular check and I have 5 follicles growing 3 on the left and 2 on the right measuring 6,9,10,12, and 10 mm perspectively. My lining is at 8.2 as well :0) So I am going to stim through the weekend my E2 level (estogen) is at 252 and I will go back to the RE on Monday for another check if all is well I will get my Hcg shot to release the eggs. Allen and I will go into the RE again on Wednesday for the IUI. Hoping and praying for amazing things this cycle.

New year, new post…………..

Happy New Years Everyone!!!!!!!!

To start the new years off on a good note I want to let you guys know that on the 31st we recieved notice from the county adoption agency that we have passed our homestudy and are clear to start parenting classes this month starting on the 20th. We are beyond estatic 🙂 One step closer…………….

On the IUI front since we didnt hear from the RE not to start this cycle after my chemical pregnancy I have now been on stimulant drugs for 8 days. I have no idea whats brewing inside though because I havent seen the RE since prior to the holidays. I left a message so hopefully in the next few days I should hear from them. I hope so put of 3 bags of stims I am down to one box. YIKES!!!! I have been doping myself twice a day with the assistance of my handsome nurse Allen. SO yeah with that many hormones something has to be growing.

We went to Richmond, VA this past weekend and had a ball for New Years it was the first time in almost 7 years that I have gone out dancing. It was so much fun :0) We went out to dinner at a really nice resturant Kona Grill. I have never had Sea Bass before it was so yummy it almost melted on my tongue. After dinner we went to a Martini bar with a live band and DJ it was so awesome by the end of the night or morning my feet were killing me but the memories are worth it 100% make that 1000%. We also went to a baby shower for a dear friend of mine. While it did make me a little sad the addition of a little one in the world is all that one can hope for and she and her husband will be awesome parents to young Master Jackson.

Well I hope you all had a wonderful holiday. Time for me to go to sleep :0)

Ending 2010

While 2010 has brought some pretty awesome things the most being my husband and his fellow service members home from a deployment and a change of scenery here to NC (which the jury is still out on until I get a job), it has also dealt us some sadness.

Last week we found out through a HPT (home pregnancy test) that I was pregnant and sadly two days later I found out we had another loss through a chemical pregnancy. I am so hoping things look up in 2011 actually I am praying for a silver lining. My RE is out util after the new year. They did leave instructions though that if I started a cycle before they returned to start a regimine of Menopur and Bravelle twice a day until they return which hopefully should be Tuesday. So that would equal about 7 days of meds hopefully it will be god news. We are going to see friends of Allen and I on New Years her parents are throwing her and her husband a aby shower we met when we lived in Colorado. She and her hubby are such a sweet couple although I am estatic for them I am a little sad as well. Oh so I want that for Allen and I. We should be hearing back from social services in the New Year as well to see how everything is going on the adoption front as well.