I think IF has just about drained me of everything, I feel like I have given everything and gotten nothing in return except heartache and pain. I mean how many REs give their patients a refund and shoo them off??? I know this is all for the better but it personally does not make me feel better. In my second job I am in close contact with all the military families my husband serves with and it is so hard sometimes hearing all of the birth announcements and wishing it were us. This past weekend I was in a minor fender bender with my friends 1.5 year old in tow ( we are both fine) when we got to the hospital the nurse actually asked me if he were my son all red hair and green eyes of him. But it still cut like a knife.
I have lost friends to IF and those that are still my friends I know are tired of hearing from me and the IF world, even when taking time off from trying it seems to consume my mind.
IF has claimed my body and friends and war has taken my husband away, oh I feel like a lucky girl. NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
{{{hugs}}}
Comment by Larissa — July 9, 2009 @ 12:44 pm
Shay, if they are your real friends, they are NOT tired of hearing about your IF. I’m sorry you’ve had such shit luck lately – you most certainly do NOT deserve any of it.
Comment by jkmastera — July 22, 2009 @ 10:27 am